Don’t peek

An unfinished painting

It’s canvas is there

Hesitant brush strokes

The paint still wet

Fragile and defensive 

Cautious of my next move

Afraid to alter the image I have in mind

Alas the image has been created

It’s not ready yet

It’s jagged corners

Anxious of unwanted oils seeping in

Artist has pushed

Art feels pressured

Art pushes artist away

It’s not ready yet

Just a girl

I am insecure of my abilities of keeping you.
For life I have not gained control of just yet.
Guilt lives within me as I cannot give you all of me for the time being.
I'm scared that you will realize and want to go
I wouldn't blame you.
I'm keeping you from enjoying life.
I blame myself for keeping you unhappy.

a girl who is still growing,
a girl who hasn't lived,
a girl who isn't as motivated
a girl who is just twenty.

To my moon | December 21, 2016 | 4:32 am

Across oceans and seas

For love I seeked

And to you who strengthens me, 

You are the reason for my highest of peaks

My love, my heart, my stars

My eyes are for only you

Why look for happiness anywhere else

When you've been the reason I don't have to

For every time I cried

You gave me a millions reasons not to

For ever flower needs it's sun

For every planet must have it's moon

Pants On Fire

I have one rule, just one.
Don't lie to me.
That's all.
I can handle whatever else,
Just please, don't lie to me.

Wave

I've been quite content with my life at the moment. 

These first four days of 2016 have been good to me.

But it's currently 3:05 am, and my mood has changed dramatically...

It seems that a wave of sadness has just stricken over me.

I'm not aware of the reason, but my heart feels numb.

And i don't know how to fix it

please help.

Table For One

I've been pulled into unfamiliar territory

And I don't know how to react

Im not sure if I'm lost or if I'm exactly where I need to be

I'm scared, optimistic, hopeful for something that I might not attain

This uncertainty has become a heavy weight,

But maybe I should just let the world take care of it

It's always nice to get a little reminder that you're the least favorite. Actions speak louder than words, and these actions are pretty clear. 

On the bright side at least they're not spitting lies in my face

    -A not happy Dua

P.S. I'm having a serious craving for a cup of Ramen Noodles at 2:25 am.