Am i a withering rose?

I wanted to use this blog as an escape from most of my reality. The hardships in particular. Some might say "but Dua you're only a teenager what hardships are you possibly going through besides meeting bedtime requirements on a school night?" i would be saying the same thing but sometimes I feel like nothing. On some days I feel extremely unattractive to the point where I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I've never been comfortable in my own skin. When people say they wish they could go back to their childhood days I always disagree because I was just as insecure then as I am now. Now I can't say I always feel like this because I dont, some days I feel like the prettiest I can ever be, but other days its like what I'm feeling right now, horendous. On top of that I sometimes feel like I have no friends like there's no one I can turn to.  Idk if I'm going to keep this posted I originally didn't want to post this in the first place because I hate those people who always post things about their struggles and insecurities for attention. And trust me I don't want anyone sympathy I just wanted to put this out somewhere besides inside my head. I'm not going to do anything stupid like some others who go to the extreme when feeling depressed trust me I'm not that saddened. Idk Ihave an extreme love hate relationship with mmy own emotions. I should really be going to bed now, its a school night and its definitely passed my bed time. Goodnight my lovelies-sincerely Dua xoxo