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You know what I'm going to say it because it is obvious everyone else praises this shit mentality.

NO it is not okay for someone to play with another person's emotions, no matter what past that person might've had or what you think that person deserves. You might be thinking of it as a side thing but that person is taking your attention and believing the lies you're telling them. Oh yeah and I literally hate the term "talking to someone" like is it now socially unacceptable for someone to be in a relationship with another person ???? Idk but I'm just saying this weird ass mentality everyone has going on about relationships, I'm not a fan. I need someone who cares for me, and voluntarily makes time to talk to me. Because if you truly liked someone you would never be too busy for them. I don't see the point in raising a persons hopes and then one day just not caring for them. I hate this inhumane shit man, I have feelings, and I want to be liked for me. I want to be someone's one and only. I want to be a person that someone makes time for; not because they have to but because they want to. To all the people who do have that, I respect you, maybe the rest could learn a thing or two from you all.

Excerpt : 1 - Dua

It's hard to strive for something that's always just out of reach. 

I'm surrounded by my sister who's never had to try so hard to keep her figure in tact. It sucks to know that someone with the same blood has such an easier life. But why? Because of some stupid metabolism? Because I wasn't the third child to be born into my family? 

Do you realize how hard it is to work out constantly and eat healthy but still not be where you want to be. While my sister is over in the other room complaining at how she's losing too much weight.  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?????? She's never experienced crying constantly because she's not happy at how she looks. She doesn't realize how easy she has it. 

Before I go to bed and get out of it I force myself to look in the mirror and repeat in my mind, im such an ugly person, why can't i look more like my sister? why can't it just be easier for me to lose the weight I want to remove. Why can't it just be easier for me to love myself and be satisfied with the way I look now?

I hate my body, I will always no matter how much weight I lose. 

Fading into the crowd

I've been in college (uni) for about a month now. I've realized the cliques and groupings there are amongst the students that go here.  Now a lot of the time it's by race, styles, and just of people who have known each other for a long time. Being that it only has been a month I could understand why people haven't made it there point to branch put from everyone else. Everyone seems the same. The hipsters look like the other hipsters. The "ghettos" look like the other "ghettos". The foreigners, well they look like foreigners. I'm trying my best to look different from the rest of everyone else here. I have not noticed that anyone gave the street style look a try here. That is why street style specifically in European and Asian countries have been my ultimate way of going. If we aren't trying to look different, then we'll just blend in with everyone else and that's no fun. 

Ps just spotted a boy with overalls, and that hasn't been spotted yet. YOU GO BOY! (Indirect approval) lol

-see ya x

Football Season Is Among Us!

Football season is almost here everyone, so I think it's time for a football themed post! Im not going to lie I'm not the biggest fan of football but my brother is, so I had to dedicate this one to him. Here is he and my niece matching each other wearing RGIII Redskins jerseys. I hope you enjoy how cute this is as much as I did! Click on the pictures to go through the pictures easier. :)

                         

                         

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The Grad of 2k14

(you can tell i was excited lol)

Hey everyone! As you can tell I've graduated from high school last Friday, May 30, 2014. High school has been a blessing, I've got to discover who I am. The road to this day had some bumps along the way but it was truly worth it. I came out happy with myself and with the people I've surround myself with. This is only the end of one chapter and the beginning of another. 

An ode to future AP students

It starts out as a thought 
Curiosity then controls
A Sense of wondrous images 
Flicker between the electric wires of my brain 
Buzzing of emotions 
Like drinking a fresh glass of, 
nervousness and excitement. 
It's the first day 
You're surrounded by familiar faces and sounds,
girls screeching --as if they didn’t just see each other. 
Guys hugging but you know-- discreetly  
because it isn't very "manly", so they say 
Teachers are filled with welcomes and smiles 
"This class is college level" they say 
"No slacking, college's don't accept slackers" they say 
I just thought it was a scare tactic 
I took it lightly 

First Quarter is here 

this is where the unfamiliarity occurs 
mystifying words 
letters, numbers, lines, shapes jumbled up together 
You'll actually think you've gone dyslexic at one point. 
Oh yeah, 
DO NOT FEAR THE PRETEST 
I REPEAT for emphasis 
DO NOT FEAR THE PRETEST 
you'll get the concept...eventually...maybe.

Second and Third Quarters mosey on by 
In other words, "The Fuzzy stages",  
a big blur if you ask me 
This period is like you're sophomore and junior years 
or like being the middle child, 
they're  kind of just there 
Time passes quicker then it may seem 
Priorities are chosen wisely 
It's like choosing a Pokemon to battle in your dual, 
which one will get you to the top,  
which priority will get you to become the next Pokemon Master ? 
Yeah I know one of the most important classes in your High School career 
and I'm relating it to Pokemon. 
Because although it may seem like you've just started these, 
so called Fuzzy Stages, 
They are the body of our knowledge  
The plot of our story 
we ask ourselves what really happened in these 2 quarters, 
and no one really knows 
but all you do know is that thought is now viewed in depth 
BUT you're still kind of iffy about that ghastly exam in May. 

Now it is fourth quarter, 
Yeah I know. 
It passes like the period of this poem, you don’t really know how to describe the length of it. 
The dreadful date, May (enter date here) gets closer and closer. 
The walls of your inner thoughts seem to be closing in on you 
Overwhelmed, Intimidated. 
Words zoomed passed your mind a mile a minute, 
Am I ready for this? Is it even worth taking the exam? I'm not smarter than so and so. Gosh three hours sounds like a long time. What if this entire year of taking this class is just a waste of my time? 
THIS is where the uncontrollable thoughts start to take over. 
Comparing yourself to someone else, 
Not the best thing to do. It's pretty ignorant if you ask me. 
Self-encouragement is lost and no where to be found. 
No type of pride in your own work 
Accepting the fact that you probably aren't the best. 
THESE are the words I thought to myself every time I walked through the doors of my AP Classes 
Because there's always someone better. 
Don't do it. 
The disbelief in one's self because of the public system literally telling us you're not as smart as someone else. 
How is one not intimidated after that? 
It doesn't matter in the end. 
Hard work pays off 
If you truly believe that you're good enough, don't let the words of doubt control you. 
You are your own person and if you want to challenge yourself, 
I say go for it.                                        -Dua Kheiry